小生命

我站在走廊，听着电话，欣赏华中的夜景。。。这是我呆在华中最后的几日。。。和母亲聊完了电话，伏在栏杆上，听着楼下传来的吉他声。吉他声带着一种温暖，像是述说了一个悲伤的故事，一个充满意义，充满温暖的故事。。。我低下了头，沉睡在自己的世界里。无意间，发现了一珠长在壁缝的小树苗。两片绿绿的叶子出现在一面墙壁上。常呆在那儿的我，竟然没发现它。。。我呆呆地望着在这狭窄壁缝里，只靠下落的雨水与阳光成长的小树苗。想起它所经过的难关，所经过的阻碍。。。它成功了，成功长出了壁缝来到了这五彩缤纷的世界，这是它努力的代价，它的奖励。人生不是也一样吗？我们必须经过悲伤与失败低落的过程才能得到成功与收获。因为有了失败，低落与悲伤，我们才能成长，才能领悟。因为有了悲伤，低落与失败，我学会了体谅，明白了友情的重要。。。因为有了悲伤，低落与失败，我学会了放下，学会了牺牲。。。因为有了悲伤，低落与失败，我变得坚强，也学会了等待。。。因为有了悲伤，低落与失败，生活才会变得有趣。我现在还是分不清，自己到底是成功还是失败的。。。往往在某些事上成功了但也同时在某些事上失败。比如，一位成功的企业家却是一个失败的父亲。。。他是成功还是失败呢？成功会比失败好吗？成功有时反而会变成一个恶魔。。。有些人成功后，就会开始骄傲。。。有的会接受不了失败。。。有的会变成得贪心。。。那现在我再问你。。。成功真的比失败好吗？

戏与梦

以下是林清玄的一篇散文：

一位在电影上都演出完美爱情的女明星，现实生活的感情却一再遭到挫败。
当她接受记者的访问时，感慨地说：“演了这么多年的戏，设想到演自己是最辛苦和失败的，因为演别人时可以根据剧本的情节来演出，但是演自己时，却没有写好的剧本，没有彩排，也没有NG，一旦演坏了，就要承担所有的责任。”
因此，她说：“演别人容易，做自已难。”
读了这个报道，我的感触很深，大凡世事皆是如此，旁观者清，当局者迷；站在岸边时容易客观，身陷洪流时就会迷乱了，在现实社会，我们可能看到心理学家比一般人有更多的心理情结；专门为人解答婚姻爱情的人，自己的爱情婚姻可能一塌糊涂。
由于真实人生没有剧本，没有彩排，不能重来，所以要紧的是活在眼前，让每一个眼前都活在最好的状况，承担此刻的责任，那么结局即使不能完美，过程也没有遗憾了。
世事离戏只有一步之远。
人生离梦也只有一步之遥。
生命最有趣的部分，胜过演戏与做梦的部分，正是它没有剧本、没有彩排、不能重
来。
生命最有分量的部分，正是我们要做自己，承担所有的责任。

我认为他们两人，都说得很对。演自己是最难得。。。我自己往往会给自己打败，把自己迷失。。。奇怪的是，世界上最难了解的人便是自己。。。有时当我觉得我很了解自己的需求，自己的目标。。。但后来发现全是虚伪的。。。但当演自己时，没有剧本。。。因为没有剧本，便不能预知将会发生事。。。因此会感到格外的刺激并有着一种的期待。。。生活已变得有趣。。。倘若生活是暗淡无趣的。。。那我们活着还有什么意义呢？

my blog looks as if it was dying... maybe im similar to my blog... A lot of things had happened ever since the exam period had ended... Most of them are saddening... There was something wrong with me. Something unplesant...

Lying on the bed, thinking what had happened during the days in singapore... I had changed a lot. My friend once glance at me and said, "U had changed a lot. U aren't ur old self. U re very different from the u I know in the past." That time I don't understand what she was saying. But now I do... Maybe the pain had changed me. I had to make a lot decision here. Life goes on no matter what.It won't wait for anyone. Sometimes we just have to give up something, we just have to make sacrifics.

Flash backs...

For some reasons…I am still up at this time of the day… And was reading ghost stories online 4 the whole night… But I don’t feel scare… Instead i feel like as if I had gone back to the past. Remembering the times I was under my blanket, holding the torch light with the book…

Somehow I was always discovered the next day and needed to face the scolding and punishment… Remember the times when I was ready to be canned… I have my own ways of avoiding it… It is to hide the cane behind the shelves… I believe that here are still some of them there… I remembered the times I lost in my chess competition and I would throw or hide the score sheets if there is any… Or sometimes when I broken things and I would hid it under the table.

I remember once I accidentally made my sister fell off the trolley and injured her head… That night I was canned until my leg was bleeding… Ouch! That cane sure left some marks there…

These days I was actually living in my own world. Having a lot of thought and ignoring what was happening around me… I felt like when I am in primary school. Always deep in my thoughts, always looking for questions and asking unreasonable question, like: Why am I alive? Why am I a human? Something like that…
And it suddenly reminds me of my teacher who had passed away while teaching us. The part when he fainted and was gone… The shocking, the crying, the yelling… Then there was the part I left M’sia… The first time for me really crying and realizing that I am actually going to spore… alone…

I am still wondering if it is a right choice… A lot of things that I haven’t even dreamt happened… I could have write a book out of it… Maybe I should just start writing it… The title… Llife in hostel? Or Life without parents? Or my wonderful experience? Or what?

A lot of sad, happy, boring, wonderful… All the memories crumpled and was struck in my mind… Is this what life is about? Peace may bring a boring life but an interesting life will bring in pain. And pain is the part where it actually makes us grow and be more mature…

But it is the people’s choice to choose and boring life or an interesting one… It depends on how they see it… And soon it will tell you if you had made a right or a wrong choice… But if it is a normal boring life… What are we still living for? Might as well be dead then stuck in the boringness… That’s my feeling then… Whats yours?

A cute but touching story

The story is titled, a present of ‘nothing’… It may seem a bit lame and funny at the start… (note tt the “I” in the story refers to a pet dog)

My friend, Charlie’s (Also another pet dog) birthday is coming soon. I was deciding what to give him. He had a cozy bed, enough food, a squeaky toy and a pillow… He had everything… So what should I give him? I should give him… nothing! Yes, NOTHING. But how do I give him nothing? I heard my owner sitting in front of the TV and said “There is nothing to watch today…” But I always saw something in there… I heard my owner’s wife coming back home from the shopping center saying “There is nothing to buy…” So… I went to the shopping center… But there were a lot of things waiting to be sold. In the end I decided to give Charlie an empty box… I found an empty box in the basement. But I think that he should deserve more… So I went to the basement again and got a bigger box. I wrapped it. Charlie’s birthday had arrived… I took the box to Charlie’s house. He took the present happily and opened it… He said “There’s nothing inside…” I said, “There is nothing except for you and me…” Charlie smiled and hugged me. We sat on the sofa doing nothing but… feeling everything…

Lost in darkness...

I had forgotten how to cry... I had forgotten how to laugh... I had forgotten how I start... And how I survived... I had forgotten who I am... My world had been taken away from me... Where am I? I am lost... in darkness... Now I am trying to find out who I am... Can anyone give me an answer? My mind is burning... in a hot fire...

Curse and blessing...

I had came across a lot of unlucky things... But it turned out to be a blessing... It hard to dicide which is curse and which is blessing... It may looked like a blessing at the start... But it may only last for a short while and turn into a curse... Don't think that it is impossible... In this everchanging world... Everything is possible... There is something called miracle... It needs faith to appear... You need to believe it... Although it is rare... But it is a chance that it may happen... Although hopes looks like it had been swept away... But when you believe somehow it will happen... Who knows what miracle you may achieve... It maybe a lot greater then you had imagined...

A weird day...

I felt warm… Maybe I am having a fever… Having maths test tomorrow… What luck? But today I really had a weird day. We (me & cam) went to West Mall for lunch. We ate at the Subway. After we brought our meals, we looked for empty seats. In the end we shared a table with a women. She was in her early thirties and was waiting for her husband who was buying their lunch with their children. Somehow we started a ‘long’ conversation that last for almost 2 hours. Then, we went for some shopping (being forced to, I hated shopping through…) When we were about to leave… We came upon an uncle who was selling IQ games. The shocking part was that he didn’t finish his sec3 but got a master degree for something. We talked for at least 2 hours plus. In the end of the day, I still couldn’t believe that I actually talked to strangers for almost 4 hours… I wondered if everyone in this world were not greedy… This world will really be a better place…

IQ test

I found a IQ test on the net... It is in Chinese.
If u wanna play it, take out a piece of paper and write down the answer for the following question... Pls dun cheat yourself by seeing the ans at the end of the post...

1. 英国有没有七月四日(美国独立纪念日)？
2. 一个人一辈子有几个生日？
3. 大月有31天，小月有30天，那麽一年中几个月有28天？
4. 棒球比赛每一局有几人出局？
5. 在美国加州，一个男人可否和他的寡妇的姊姊或妹妹合法结婚？
6. 30除以二分之一再加上10等於多少？
7. 桌上有3个苹果，你拿起2个，你还有几个？
8. 医生给你3个药丸，要你每30分钟吃1个，这些药丸多久後会被吃完？
9. 农夫有17只羊，除了9只以外都病死了，农夫还剩几只羊？
10. 摩西将每种动物选了几只带上方舟？
11. 一打每张叁元的邮票共有几张？








Answer

1. 有，每个国家都有七月四日
2. 一个
3. 12个，每个月都有
4. 6个，上下半局各3个
5. 不能，他已经死了
6. 70
7. 2个，因为你只拿了2个
8. 60分钟，第1个 --- 间隔30分钟 --- 第2个 --- 间隔30分钟 --- 第3个，共60分钟
9. 9只
10. 0只，方舟是诺亚建造的，和摩西没有关系
11. 12张

Nothing is pure...

A new month have finally arrived... Theres exam tomorrow... But today really was a beautiful day... I found out that... no matter what day you have... You will have both happiness and sadness... Lucky and unlucky... There aren't a day that was pure happiness, sadness, lucky or unlucky... Its only the problem with the amount of which you have more...It was the same as beautiful, bright, dark and ect... If you see a bright day... You must remember somwhere in this world is dark... If you feels lucky... Someone in this world will be feeling unlucky... They may be just by your side... Its only because you didn't notice... It isn't because there aren't... Those who were still in darkness were waiting for people to help them... Were waiting for people to notice them... Many talk different from what they think... Many look different from the outside with what they were in the inside... Please try to find them... They were desperately waiting for help... Try to look into what they were thinking... Try to pay attention to those who were around you... You may find something you had never imagined before... Don't be blinded...